urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69 Christy Eliza Bean Norton Christy Eliza Bean Norton 2003-12-23T20:30:34Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:24277 2003-12-23T20:27:11Z 2003-12-23T20:30:34Z kirsty mccoll-mad love i hate not having school. i know that's really sad. but i'm not the type of person who can just sit home and do nothing. it pisses me off. and makes me really depressed. and i can't deal with being depressed right now. cause it makes me manic. and that's not a good thing. i get all crazy like and make my husband hate me. i need drugs. strong ones. to make me not bi-polar anymore. <br /><br />last night i flipped out on shawn just because we have to go to his family's house for christmas. this is something we have had to do for the last three years and now i decide to blow up about it. and he knows i hate his family but why do we have to fight about it. i'm just sick of dealing with them. and when i'm not in a very good mental state to begin with and i have to deal with his mother telling me when i'm allowed to have babies, it makes me wanna stab myself. i mean what the fuck, is it any of her business, when MY HUSBAND AND I have kids. it's our decision. i think she still thinks this isn't going to last and since we pissed her off majorly by getting married she wants to make sure we don't make her a grandmother before she has finished her drinking years. in which case i'll never have children because she'll always be an alcoholic. i just hate that woman. i've tried for three years now to make that woman like me and she continues to hate me. i haven't done anything wrong except save her son's life. if it wasnt' for me, i seriously think shawn would have killed himself. and i make him happy and he makes me happy. i don't understand why she wants to destroy that or why she's jealous of that. why doesn't she want shawn to be happy? why doesn't she want us to be married? i don't really care if she likes me, cause the feelings mutual, i just don't respect the way she treats her son and that fuckin pisses me off. it's my responsibility to take care of shawn, to make sure he's happy, and ok. i'm his wife. it's my job. and one that i'm extremely ecstatic to take on. cause i love him more than anything else in this entire world. he's my lovey. and the only thing in this world that has the ability to make me happy right now is seeing him happy. and knowing that i make him that way. i swear i was built for this whole wife thing. i think i'm pretty damn good at it. at least i hope so. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:23946 2003-07-22T04:05:05Z 2003-07-22T04:05:05Z well this is definitely not how i expected my first month of marriage to be. tonite is the first in a year that i have spent alone. after a knock-down drag out fight, he leaves without saying goodbye and now he's not coming home. maybe i shouldn't have tried so hard. maybe i should have listened to all the people who told me what an asshole he was. but hell i do have the beaten wife syndrome. at least this time it's just mental not physical. but bruises heal and this doesn't. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:23677 2003-06-09T13:38:34Z 2003-06-09T13:38:34Z the wedding was perfect. overlooking the ocean just shawn and me staring at each other. i loved it. and now i'm officially Mrs. Christy Eliza Norton. today i get to go change my name on everything so i can actually sign my name Mrs. Norton!!!!!! it's so freakin cool. but the vacation overall kinda sucked cause bridey is a total bitch and jason is so fuckin whipped it's scary. but it's alright it was worth it cause now we're married and we get to start our lives together finally as a married couple!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:23448 2003-05-29T17:58:39Z 2003-05-29T17:58:39Z tsl- best of me SHAWN AND I ARE GETTING MARRIED IN 5 DAYS!!!!!!! i'm gonna finally be Mrs. Shawn Patrick Norton!!!!! yay for me! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:23228 2003-05-21T14:44:03Z 2003-05-21T14:44:03Z just when the tanning started to work, i get hives all over my body. its really gross and i think it may be because of my birth control. but oh well. i don't know what to do cause i'm getting married in 13 DAYS!!!! and i have to be tan for my wedding pictures dammit. but i don't wanna get skin cancer and i don't wanna have hives for my wedding pics either. what's a girl to do?<br /><br />i spent pretty much the whole day with katie and jace yesterday. he's such a great baby. i'm supposed to go over today too but i don't know if what i have is contagious cause i don't wanna give it to the baby. so we'll see what happens. he's supposed to come home tomorrow. hopefully!<br /><br />so bridey booked A Wedding to Remember. so shawn and i are getting married June 3, 2003 at 6:00pm. i'm excited. the only thing that needs to be taken care of now is the tuxes for the boys. so we gotta do that soon or else they'll have to be naked. and i don't think they will like that too much! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:22875 2003-05-20T13:26:05Z 2003-05-20T13:26:05Z katie had her baby on saturday. and even though he is (according to aunt ginnie) 7 weeks premature, he's perfect. they were going to make kate and jace stay at strong because he was a premmie but they transported them to noyes yesterday morning so i actually got to hold him. oh my god, he's sooooo beautiful. and today i get to go over and spend the day with kate cause she's all by herself and she said she needed company. so i get to spend the whole day with katie and jace!!!! how exciting. i think i'll go now!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:22530 2003-05-13T22:00:15Z 2003-05-13T22:00:15Z cold-stupid girl I got my wedding dress today. it's beautiful. we got it in the first shop we went in today,..we were supposed to do a day trip all over rochester but instead we found it on the first try!!! bridey also got her's. but mine is prettier!! hehe. i love it, but i spent entirely too much money on it. the dress was $625 and my viel was $67 plus i had to get the bra/bustier thingy. but it's ok it's my wedding dammit. i should be happy right. and i dont' care if shawn is mad at me for spending too much money we are never going to get married again and i have to have a gorgeous wedding dress so there!! but he won't be mad at me, he loves me. and we are getting married in exactly 3 weeks from today!! 21 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:22351 2003-05-07T13:38:39Z 2003-05-07T13:38:39Z erica had her baby yesterday morning. it's a sweet little girl named Ambrea Nicole Hartson. she's gorgeous. at first she had a lot of trouble breathing and erica and bill couldn't hold her for a really long time, but last night when shawn and i left they took the oxygen off of her and we're gonna let her be in erica's room for the rest of the night. she's just so damn precious, she's eight pounds 13 ounces, she's got dark curly hair and she's gonna look just like her mommy. now i want a baby dammit all! but my boyfriend,...soon to be husband,..won't let me have one. OH! and we just found out the sue's pregnant too and she's due on Christmas day! oooo how i love these babies!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:22166 2003-05-02T21:17:48Z 2003-05-03T13:44:54Z i want it dirty dirty aunt ginnie called and erica might actually go into labor soon. she's having really bad contractions and she's dialated 4cm. how freakin' cool!!!!!! we're gonna have a baby!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:21770 2003-04-30T14:09:09Z 2003-04-30T14:09:09Z i just realized that in the last two times i have posted it's been at the exact same time,..except for one was in the morning and the other was at night. how freakin weird. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:21674 2003-04-30T14:06:46Z 2003-04-30T14:06:46Z evanescence-you well i talked to bridey last night and i don't think she really cared too much about me and shawn getting married in myrtle beach on our vaca. so it looks like were really gonna do this!!!!!! we are going to get married in 37 days!!!!! IN 37 DAYS I'm GOING TO BE CHRISTY ELIZA NORTON!!!!!!!!! it's about fucking time! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:21413 2003-04-28T02:14:04Z 2003-04-28T02:17:08Z some dry kill logic song that's been in my head all day so we went to bath tonight for a show. and the boys played and although this is their first show and my first time seeing them, i think it was pretty good. plus i think i like hanging out with that crew. even though they're metal heads who are big pot smokers, they are pretty funny. <br /><br />so lately shawn and i have been talking about how i should write a song called "Chapped Lips". well i've been thinking of cool lyrics to that one and all i can think of that aren't too perverted, are like stupid bubblegum pop lovey shit. and that's not what the songs supposed to be about. so i will just have to think about that one for awhile. <br /><br />Katie was supposed to leave Chris tonight. but unfortunately i dont' think she did. i'm kind of afraid for her. i think that one of these times when he gets really pissed off, he is gonna do something to hurt her or the baby. so i think he should take a trip to the "dead hole." <br /><br />Sarah talked to Joey on Easter Sunday and he's in Kuwait. so he's out of harms' way and he thinks he's coming home either JULY OR AUGUST!!!! i'm glad none of my family members will be in that god forsaken place after a few months. i just want everyone to be home, safe, and happy.<br /><br />and for more good news,...dun dun dun. shawn and i have yet again changed our wedding plans. after going to ruperts and checking out other reception sites, his mother decided to be a real bitch and we have decided to elope. and since we are leaving for myrtle beach in about 5 weeks, we thought it would be excellent timing. so as of right now, we are planning on getting married on the beach, June 6th, at sunset. i think it will be beautiful, exactly what we want, and completely stress free. i just hope everything works out that way!! for both of us. cause pretty soon we are both going to go insane!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:21171 2003-04-18T03:39:50Z 2003-04-18T03:39:50Z hehehehe. <br />christy loves me<br />yes she does<br />christy loves me<br />even my fuzz<br /><br />i love christy<br />more than you<br />i love christy<br />yes its true<br /><br />oh yeah im silly. im so silly. silly. ah. i love you baby!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:20742 2003-04-14T02:01:29Z 2003-04-14T02:01:29Z i just found out i got an 83 on my anthropology exam. that really pisses me off cause i'm not that stupid thank you. maybe someone is trying to fuck me over. people tend to think they can do that to me. like the wentworths guy, len, and everyone else i come into contact with. "i'm just a stupid, little blonde girl that doesn't know any better. please fuck me over as much as you can!!!!" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:20599 2003-04-03T21:15:15Z 2003-04-03T21:15:15Z evanescence-you so we went to court last night. oh yes it was so much fun. that fucker lied about everything. he at first tried to make us think he wanted to settle the whole thing, so we were sent into a room with the asshole, and he was trying to intimidate us. unfortunately for him it didn't work. then we went out in front of the judge. the judge had to repeatedly shut him up, he even told len not to be mean and call me a liar. so i think the judge was on our side. at the end of the trial, the judge told us that he has 30 days to make his decision and will let us know by a written letter. then he said "and my judgement will be legally abided by." that statement was obviously not for us. what do we have to legally abide by? he has our money, we're suing him. not the other way around. so i think we won. i think the judge saw right through him. hopefully, cause i really want to put this whole fuckin pathetic situation behind us. i am so sick of losing sleep over that asinine man. he's just not worth my time, and once we get our money back, i am gonna go to his house and cut off his legs and arms. then i'm gonna shoot him in the head. oh wait i'm not supposed to be bitter. fuck that. this guy deserves so much more pain than just having to return OUR own money to us. mom said we should send him a thank you card. i think we should slander him in the paper, and make it so that no one ever rents from him again. but he'll get his. it's the rule of three right? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:20233 2003-03-31T04:06:06Z 2003-03-31T04:06:06Z evanescence-you “Painful Touch”<br /><br />i can still feel you inside me<br />twisting that metaphorical knife<br />how can you be a lifetime away<br />and still make me feel this small<br />how can you have ruined a lifetime of happiness<br />with just one painful touch<br /><br />you’re gone now<br />but you keep returning in my dreams<br />do you still think of me<br />or is it just a luxury i’ve come to despise<br />i can see your condescending smile again<br />why can’t it be my time to cause the abuse?<br /><br />every time you disappear<br />i think maybe i’ve been healed<br />maybe i will have some chance at normalcy<br />but you have this way of tearing away my dreams from me<br />without being near me<br />how can one person make you lose all of yourself and lose nothing in return<br />where is my god<br />where is my savior<br />who’s going to take away my pain<br />who’s going to take your life <br />and make you feel what you have inflicted on me<br /><br />i can still feel you inside me<br />twisting that metaphorical knife<br />how can you be a lifetime away<br />and still make me feel this small<br />how can you have ruined a lifetime of happiness<br />with just one painful touch<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Shawn Patrick~<br />please don't get upset. it was something i wrote tonight and I thought it was kind of cool. it's just words don't worry. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:20002 2003-03-30T04:41:04Z 2003-03-30T04:41:04Z haunted i wish i could write stuff like evanescence. they're really cool. and i like her vocals. it's tori shit kinda. i like it. it doesn't seem that hard. <br /><br /> "You"<br /><br />The words have been drained from this pencil<br />Sweet words that I want to give you<br />And I cant sleep, I need to tell you... goodnight<br /><br />When we’re together I fell perfect<br />When I’m pulled away from you I fall apart<br />All that you say is sacred to me<br />Your eyes are so blue, I can’t look away as we lay in the stillness<br />You whisper to me, Lady, marry me, promise you’ll stay with me<br />Oh you don’t have to ask me, you know you’re all that I live for<br />You know I’d die just to hold you, stay with you <br />Somehow I’ll show you that you are my night sky<br />I’ve always been right behind you<br />Now I’ll always be right beside you<br /><br />So many nights I’ve cried myself to sleep<br />Now that you love me I love myself<br />I never thought I would say that<br />I never thought there’d be you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:19734 2003-03-30T04:19:51Z 2003-03-30T04:19:51Z evanescence-going under it's scary. that's the movie that shawn and mom are watching right now. ed norton is a pink rhino suit. what is this world coming to???? <br /><br />so anyway, i had a talk with shawn last night about being in a band. i could be the singer. so all today i was thinking of stuff that i could write about. and i really don't think i could write my own lyrics. and if i could i wouldn't want anyone to listen to them. why can't i be like britney spears and have no talent and people write my lyrics for me and i just make all the money. seriously why can't that be my dream? for one, she's a whore and secondly i wouldn't want to do it like that. if i can't write lyrics then i can't be in a band right? right. <br /><br />i had a dream last night that joey would be able to come home. but under one condition that everyone in the family would wear these funny hats. i can't even describe them. they kind of looked like sailor's hats but green. well anyway, i hope that the meaning behind that dream is that joey will be coming home soon. hopefully he is fine and safe and coming home to be with his family. cause max really needs his daddy.<br /><br />i hit shawn today. really hard. on his chest. i didn't mean to hit him that hard. and now he's complaining that it hurts and i hit him like 3 hours ago. i hope i didn't damage my boyfriend. that would really suck. i would have to find a new boyfriend cause i can't have a broken boyfriend. ha! i kid. i'll never find another boyfriend. i don't need to. he's the best for me!!!! and i love him a bunch too. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:19707 2003-03-25T15:15:19Z 2003-03-25T15:15:19Z simple plan-i'd do anything i love my boyfriend!!!! he's so damn good to me. i just wanna kiss him and hug him all the time!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:19361 2003-03-18T15:37:14Z 2003-03-18T15:37:14Z I had a dream last night that shawn and i were in GRAND THEFT AUTO VICE CITY! we were stealing vans and killing people and the police were after us. it was just like the game. we even had the little map in the left hand corner of the windshield and the thingy that tells you that the police are after you in the right hand corner. see that game does turn you into serial killers! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:19170 2003-03-14T15:33:45Z 2003-03-14T15:33:45Z tori amos-amber waves we went to go see tori last night at the Shea's performing arts center in buffalo. it was so awesome. she has the most incredible voice i have ever heard. the only parts that sucked were that i could barely see her face and jason and bridey made us leave before the last two songs were over. fuckers. and jason doesn't know how to drive. he almost killed us like a lot of times last night. i'm scared to drive with him ever again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:18807 2003-03-13T02:19:48Z 2003-03-13T02:19:48Z alkaline trio i'm sitting on shawn's lap right now. it feels sooooooooo good. he's touching my bad place. yep that's about it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:18443 2003-03-11T21:18:49Z 2003-03-11T21:18:49Z mom and i just watched the baby story and we were talking about baby names and these are my most favoritist baby names so far:<br /><br /> ~Olivia Star Norton~<br /> ~Matthew Brandon Norton~<br /> ~Ava Grace Norton~<br /> ~Adriana Madison Norton~<br /><br />I love all of those names. and if i want to use all of those names then that means i'm going to have four babies!!!!!! but i don't know how shawn feels about that. oh well,..it's just a thought. i want them now!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:18258 2003-03-10T16:45:52Z 2003-03-10T16:45:52Z "turn me on" Like a flower waiting to bloom <br />Like a lightbulb in a dark room <br />I'm just sitting here waiting for you <br />To come on home and turn me on <br /><br />Like the desert waiting for the rain <br />Like a school kid waiting for the spring <br />Im just sitting here waiting for you <br />To come on home and turn me on <br /><br />My poor heart it's been so dark <br />Since you've been gone <br />After all you're the one who turns me off <br />You're the only one who can turn me back on <br /><br />My hi-fi is waiting for a new tune <br />My glass is waiting for some fresh ice cubes <br />I'm just sitting here waiting for you <br />To come on home and turn me on <br />Turn me on urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nevaeh69:17974 2003-03-10T16:41:09Z 2003-03-10T16:41:09Z "it's a beautiful morning" commercial,..haha! well i've decided i'm not going to be lazy with my relationship with shawn. we've been such retards lately and it kinda felt like we were heading into another slump of me just feeling like we were friends again. but i'm not gonna let that happen. we're not just friends dammit. we love each other. and i intend to keep it that way. we both have to try hard and keep this relationship perfect. even though we haven't been fighting much,..just little spats here and there,..we still don't act the way we used to. so now with the weather warming up and we'll be moving out soon, i have vowed to make our relationship like it was a year ago. either that or i'll die trying!!! i love that boy and we both deserve the best dammit. (well at least he does!)